I wish

I wish I can love him as I want ! I wish he loves me as I want ! I wish we had this thing That I always dreamed having it with him , Clearly it's not possible ! Clearly what I want is him , but what he want isn't me ! Pain ? Yes, it's here , in this part under my chest ! Love? It's also here , living along with the pain he create ! Need ? Yes, I do , like how my lungs need the O2 to breath ! Stop? I grantee I wont ,

  Untill my soul is out  .