will never move on

its really weired how much he check her blog every day ! wired !! he never knew that i even have a blod or so ! , thanks god he dont walla I would be really angry ! I cant undrestand how a human can be that much carless ! or that much selfish ! is it me? I m sure that I have a menti9l problem because of him , I hate what I feel because of him ! I really wish that he never exsist in my life !! I wish he never happand ! I wish that I have left him when I could with out giving him all that much of love or any thing ! I really want him to suffer " allot" more than any thing , its the first time I wish someone to live misreaple for the rest of his life ! selfish ! yes I 'am finally ! wrong? I dodnt feel so ! I wish he feel this burn in me 10 times worse more , I wish that he get burned & burnes & burnes with out stopping !! Just diiiiiiiiiiiiiiie