The pain in my chest is killing me , my heart & my mind finally agreed , that this is not going to work for me any more , whatever I was doing in some point was right , But thanks god not any more . The LOVE ? was there some day , that why I used to handle the pain , something pushing me & that self cure service I used to had , but not any more ! It's only pain*pain ? why shall I stay while I'm sure & I know this will last forever ! why to have a fight I know I will never win ! am I that slow ? I already had the war & I lost it ? why am I going into this battle again , allot of feelings that no one person can handle it , 1.how he feels , 2.how she feels , 3.how they feel toward each other , 4.how i feel for him , 5 how I feel for her , then 6. how much I wont them to stay together & 7. me as a woman !! with all that love and jealousy for the one I love , & finally 8. the feeling of why the hell do u care ! just go out of this shit your going crazy. I wanna run away , from all of this , run & run & run as I have never did , wanna leave this love triangle , wanna leave it to stay as line ! two straight points directed to each other . wanna go there , to that safe place that he left for me ! that option that I never wanted any thing like it , that attraction that kills me to go toward it , that one who will accept me with my wounds and glue every thing back to his place , wanna stay dreaming that I'm there , living that part with him , but I cant , cuz of ... , its better to live in a sweat dream rather than stay in that painful truth.
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