birthday gift

today in a shock I have recived my first birthday gift !! & from who !! Saif , the most guy stand up to me & with me & I let him down . he is one of the most best men on the earth , with in an argument I had with my biggest cuzn about how carless I'm about him & not called back since I told him I want him to be out of my life , untill this moment , then while she was dropping me to home , she pull up a bag and hand it to me , saying that this is from saif , the one who really loved u & stood up for u every time u snap , the one that care enough to count the days of ur birthday and leave his work & come to me to give u this , the one who u were screaming for the last 5 mins to stay away from ur life . I was like bullets from a gun , a slap on the face and yet , I cant cry , or any thing , just feel the cold blood runs in my venuis . I remembered how close we used to be , how adorable he was , how much I wished he was my real brother from my mam & dad ! and how much when I mad that call I was angry , if the time goes back I wish I would have told him the truth , & how sad & hurt I was , not that I don't want him in my life any more , I trust him on my life more than my own brother , I miss u saif my bro , I miss u like hell , I miss u when u call me "alnooon" I miss every thing , I swear to god I will never forgive my self for this , & that person who was the cause , not untill saif forgive me <3 احبك يا أغلى أخ