a trip to alain

today I went to Alain , me & shwei5 , it's the most place I love on earth although all the ppl who truly hurts me lives there , I had this thought when I was in mubzara alone , watching the grass & the sands , I want to die here & barred here , I loved being there ! I missed it . yes it hurts so much to go there again & breath the same air , but I challenged my self I as usual I won , funny how I can challenge my self when a part lose & other wins , it's very spiritual place that I can go to collect my self & come back , makes me stronger & some times weaker but for sure I always loved it with all the pains & memories , I know one day I will be there enough to forget all the memories and the feelings that I share it with the places there , should I blame my self for being that person or should I be happy for moving on . regardless the tears & how lonely I felt , I loved it